Acts of sympathy help a grieving parent after the death of a child

You can say, "It's not supposed to be this way; parents are not supposed to bury their child," even though we both know it happens all the time. You can say to me, because I

have to accept it, as hard as it is to accept: "It happened the way it was supposed to happen." Maybe your words will convince me and put an end to the extra heartache generated by

the "what if" or "if only" scenarios. It's so hard to get past-over-around the fact that when my boy needed me the most, I wasn't there. REALIZE THAT ALTHOUGH

HE WAS A MAN, I DID LOSE MY BOY: I grieve for my baby with the silver-blond hair that only a mother could see; I grieve for my toddler with the beautiful curls. I grieve for the big brother,

for the teen, for the young man who always seemed in the eyes of his mother to need a shave and a haircut. REALIZE THAT MY PAIN CAN'T BE MEASURED: It doesn't add up the years my

son was in my life or subtract any miles between us. My loss isn't a word problem that factors in the number of children I have, their age or their gender, their gifts and talents or

challenges. ADD TO MY MEMORIES INSTEAD: Tell me how you remember my baby, my boy, my young man. Tell me a story about him; free some from the cobwebs of my mind. Give me those keepsakes;

give me that gold; fill my treasure chest with recollections. Every new one I have to cherish is a gift from you. Bring him up in conversations; talk about him; mention his name easily and

often. I need to talk about him, too, and as often as possible — correct or not — in the present tense. DON'T BE SILENT FOR FEAR OF STIRRING UP HURT: The hurt is constant; tears are

every day. I am the walking wounded, and I just want you, as always, to walk with me. And while you may wish that I could "move on" — as though healing is possible — know that I

can't possibly live long enough to heal from this loss. The best I can do is live with it, to somehow live through it, to learn to live as a mother whose life goes on even though her

son's has ended. YOU CAN PRAY FOR ME: Tell me that you will, because I've lost so much confidence in my skills (no matter that I was asking for a miracle, I didn't get the

answer I wanted when I needed it the most). Be careful, however, bringing God into the conversation. Although my Christian faith sustains me, I can't easily accept everyone speaking for

God. He has given me more than I can handle. I don't see how this tragedy will work for good. I can't stomach the thought that my son is dead for some mysterious purpose in my

life. And, until I see my child in heaven, how can I know he's there? No small wonder you're afraid to come near, to talk, to comfort. I'LL MAKE IT EASY. JUST COME CLOSE: Call

today and say that you want to get together — to have coffee. Tell me that you think about my son all the time, too, and miss him. That message soothes my broken heart. Send a message any

time, and frequently — if just to recommend a book or share a quote that comforts you. Let your heart speak. JUST TOUCH MY HAND: That, too, touches my heart. _Victoria Lemley is an editor at

AARP._